Eating

Get ready for the first day of work and try to look professional. Mirror reflects back some oddity in a sweater and skirt. Suck it in and stick em out and wish for no tits and no hips and no. Try on five outfits. Throw clothes on the floor. Forget about breakfast.

And then remember high school, being broke as fuck and never wanting to go home. Eating one bag of gardettos, diet pepsi and corn tortillas every day. Working and drinking and smoking and working and working and not doing homework and not going to class because work was only a block away from English class and work paid and school didn't. And food wastes money. And food makes you ugly anyway. Skinny days and pretty days and everyone always said, you should be a model and you are so beautiful and your hair is so long and it didn't matter that food slipped through hands. Diet soda and newport cigarettes and forty ounces and 1/8 of an ounce and holding back some girl's hair cuz she got sick from the liquor cuz she didn't eat either.